Today I center, and Turn it Over to You.

Since my manager has been out, I've been filling in for him. It's been tough.

I'm basically managing work for the equivalent of 3 teams. I have my work, the work he would normally do, handling emergencies and being handed the work of a co-worker who is quitting.

I was worried about last week... but it turns out last week wasn't that bad. But you know why it wasn't? I turned it over to God. I simply prayed each day "God this is your deal. You own this job. You put me here. I've done all I can, I ask for your help."

This week, I thought it started progressively worse. But it really didn't. What changed was my perspective. I was trying to do "more of it" myself. But now I'm taking the prayer up:

God this is your deal. This is your job. You own everything. I am your child and own all this through You. As You are the Doer, I ask You to make this week work out well. I have done all I can.

Be calm. Remember this is a test.

ONLY A TEST.

A test of what?

A test for us. To be better. find our weakness' and work them out. To become perfected through the countless aeon's. This is our test.

Look upon all things cheerfully and with courage, that's the way out of the situation. The harder it is to do that, means the more we must rely on our greater source of power - The Divine.

So yes, I was stressed... I felt anger, stress, frustration. At 11am today I wrote a friend and told them I was upset with the chaos of my situation. He was going through something similar.

I went to lunch and read through a chapter of "How to Have Courage, Calmness and Confidence" - and I drew my energy up to the Ajna chakra. Then I felt bliss... and peace.

Now I am at peace... internal peace. Joy of the soul... which is unfettered by karma and the law of return.