I've been sitting around playing with some 3D art tools - one of which is quite expensive. It's $699.
I "could" buy it, but should I? I'm not a professional artist. It's more of a hobby, I hope to turn into extra income. But I don't get paid for art - except small amounts of money for stock art.
I was reading "The Essential Bhagavad Gita" at lunch today and I came to the commentary on 3:35 -
Ask yourself inwardly, 'Will I feel freedom in this contemplated enjoyment? will I feel freedom in this desired love?'
The point there is will this gift to myself make me feel "free" or make me a victim of my desire to own this product?
Many times I find that my art is desire driven. I have a desire to be liked and respected by others and I try to create that by creating art. But it's all poor motivation.
I have also found myself so wrapped up in my art, I forget my wife, I forget to eat... That's not balanced.
Going back to previous verse - 3:34
Attraction and repulsion (regarding) sense objects belong to the natural ebb and flow of duality. Beware equally of them both, for they are man's greatest enemies!
The commentary on that verse is specific and shows the error with extreme like and dislike. I feel it's very difficult to admit this... but admit it I will - I feel it is an extreme 'like' on my part, with regards to my art.
A good feeling should come from the inward, spiritual heart. I'm not sure mine does.
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