Seek Ye First...

"How do I get out of debt?" I ask the image of Swami Yogananda... and mentally I remember, "Seek Ye first the Kingdom of God..."

What does that mean? Let me give an example - in my life I've tried desperately to get out of debt. Upon each attempt, I end up in greater debt! Years ago, I thought it was my fault. Then I got money, saved money and paid off debt - only to have a bizarre circumstance force me back into debt. Again and again this repeated. I realized God wanted me to take note of something...

So recently, I meditated about my debt. I realized that what I was really seeking was Freedom. Freedom from God. I wanted to have "freedom" from needing God to take care of me. I wanted to have ownership of my own destiny. Of my own welfare. When I could live where I pleased without fear of job insecurity I would have freedom. But I was using the situation of "debt free" as giving the lack of fear. Instead, I should "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God..." meaning, I should look at it as "God will provide."

"But," the ego will say, "your debt is so great... how will you retire? How will you take care of your family?"

Just say, "God will provide."

"But," the ego will say, "You barely get by..."

Just say "God will provide."

Seek first God... and all this will be given. That's how it should be. To look for a solution to life's problems in our own selves, outside of God, is to seek "freedom" from God. To look for solutions by believing in God, is to find solutions through God.