I am only here for God

At Agape International (www.agapelive.com) there's a song they song, which has the phrase, "I am only here for God."

Today, I woke up a bit depressed. I just got back from visiting my parents this past Monday. I was tired, and sad. Sad to see my father in his health state. Sad to see him not care about his health. Sad to be away from my mother. Sad to feel my brother's weariness. I felt like I had unfinished business... like I should have done more, done something or said something to make people feel alive.

Then I thought about my daughter.... living in france ... how i don't see her. depressing.

Then this morning, on the way to work, I realized in the car - that i'm not were I am because of me. I didn't decide "Oh I'll live in Marina Del Rey" or "Oh I'll work for this company making $X a month." God determined all of this. I am here for God. God put me here. God/Spirit had a reason. I'm here for God's reason.

Maybe someday I'll be someplace else. But for now, I'm here. I need to open my eyes and see what I need to do for God.

Maybe it's work on myself. I see this job gives me great opportunity to work on myself. Maybe my wife and child on the way will be the work I need to do on myself.

Hesitantly, I mentioned this to a friend of mine. I told him i dont know why i'm were i'm at, but that i'm where i need to be. He responded:
you're doing well
: you're settling down
: in a new place
: and getting control of your health
: and finances
: (believe it or not, that's huge)
: and growing your relationship with your wife, by growing your family. so there
: you are validated, despite your worst fears

He brought up the good. It was encouraging and I thank God for letting me talk with him that I could get that encouraging word.

There are things I need to improve upon. But, I do know that I am here for God.