In meditation today, I meditated on Paramhansa Yogananda... and in this meditation he gave me two realizations:
a) FIRST: during my meditation (and through my days) my mind plays out dramas or daydreams, that are of negative consequences to issues I face in my life. Like worst possible outcomes. It brings on anxiety, fear, anger, frustration, mistrust and the like. What I felt in my heart, was that I need to stop these negative feelings because I bring the very things I'm not wanting, into my life. The way to do this, is when a fear or anxiety arises within the mind - to great it with, "If this is God's will, I will be ready for it." Not to dwell on the situation, or avoid it. To simply turn it over to God - which is what my Mother used to always tell me about problems in my life. Now I see she was right.
b) SECOND: to stop playing the role of victim. Many times, my mind plays out dramas where I imagine myself going in to work, or talking with a family member or friend - and being a victim - like "Friend: How was your weekend?" and I respond, "OH... let me tell you about it... I worked all weekend..." Not only do I play this out in my mind, but I act it out in real life. I constantly do this, so that I get sympathy or attention. I need to stop playing the victim. The trick here is not to be too happy nor depressed about any situation that was negative. But to be neutral. To say "I handled it." and say it with peace is best. To not go into details, or lead people to dig with questions to find some problem. But to be honest, and neutral.
a) FIRST: during my meditation (and through my days) my mind plays out dramas or daydreams, that are of negative consequences to issues I face in my life. Like worst possible outcomes. It brings on anxiety, fear, anger, frustration, mistrust and the like. What I felt in my heart, was that I need to stop these negative feelings because I bring the very things I'm not wanting, into my life. The way to do this, is when a fear or anxiety arises within the mind - to great it with, "If this is God's will, I will be ready for it." Not to dwell on the situation, or avoid it. To simply turn it over to God - which is what my Mother used to always tell me about problems in my life. Now I see she was right.
b) SECOND: to stop playing the role of victim. Many times, my mind plays out dramas where I imagine myself going in to work, or talking with a family member or friend - and being a victim - like "Friend: How was your weekend?" and I respond, "OH... let me tell you about it... I worked all weekend..." Not only do I play this out in my mind, but I act it out in real life. I constantly do this, so that I get sympathy or attention. I need to stop playing the victim. The trick here is not to be too happy nor depressed about any situation that was negative. But to be neutral. To say "I handled it." and say it with peace is best. To not go into details, or lead people to dig with questions to find some problem. But to be honest, and neutral.
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