I am not the victim of the world I see.

I am not a victim of the world I see.

This is my student work in ACIM today. Actually I've been meaning to work on it the past few days. Today I got up this morning and ran through this... as previously, the day before I found myself feeling a victim.

Yesterday, I had a situation at work, where I was pushed, and pushed and pushed - stayed late on demand. I felt others were really pulling my strings and I was being a "victim." Then when we got 'really late' they decided they would release without my work after all. It was somewhat crushing.

But today I read this phrase and ponder it. Ponder it both externally and internally: I am not the victim of the world I see.

It's true. I'm not. I'm not the victim of the world I see. So what is this business that upsets me?

It's lessons. Life lessons. How did I react to the pressure at work last night? not very well. I got angry internally. I expressed some of this anger to those I work with, and with my wife. I was pissed. I cussed. Internally I was in a rage of emotion. I was upset i stayed late for no reason. I was angry with those around me.

So I was given a Lesson - and I didn't pass. I wasn't calm. I didn't see it in the moment as a Lesson. I saw it as oppressiveness, and I was it's victim. But I wasn't the victim, not really. Only by perception was I the victim.

Another perception is that this was my Karma. Have I made demands on others? Have I dismissed the work of others? Have I pushed people? Yes.

Now the lesson comes to me, and I missed it as a Lesson. I saw it as an external thing working against me. But really I could have just as easily seen it as something working for me.

I am not the victim of the world I see.